Let loose in the Topshop sale!

I am a total sucker for tshirts with little sleeves, and nude colours, hence the lovely stripey top. Also picked up the floaty purpley number as it looks lovely for the summer. It was £18 for both, which is good cos they were £20 each originally! Also got a nice gray calf length skirt which I imagine will make my arse look amazing with some heels!

Good face day!

Y'know those days when your hair and make up just go perfectly! Shame I'm only doing my shopping in town today!

Christmas!

Well, the beloved boyf has bought me some wonderful things! A new phone and a new Zatchels bag!
We've just consumed pesto pancakes with ragu, spaghetti and sauce, and veggie roast.. So full! It was so delicious!
Looking forward to seeing my family tomorrow too!
Hope everyone else has had a lovely day!

This will probably be my last post before Christmas... Seems to have come around so fast! I went through my 2011 diary yesterday to transfer all the birthdays into my new one, and things that happened in February seem like yesterday! It's really scary! Maybe it's an age thing...

I really begruge throwing away my old Moleskine diary because it's so well made, it seems such a waste... I bought a nice brown leather Filofax this year, as it seems far more economical to just be able to recycle the old pages and buy new ones, as opposed to binning the whole lot... Shame I feel like a right 80s prat with it but it's only small!

I dropped off my presents for the rescue shelter dogs so thats made me feel good for Christmas. The drop-off sack was bulging with dog toys and treats so hopefully some critters will have a nice Christmas. Plus it's both my rescue kitties first Christmas with us, so I'm gonna buy them some posh cat food each (to keep them out of our dinner!).

Quite looking forward to the New Year now. Gonna get a proper gym routine together, try and drag the boyf along to a spinning class once a week, cook more healthy food and do more for the local animal charities...I'm actually pretty good at sticking to resolutions so here's hoping!

Almost Christmas...

And I still have NOTHING for the boyfriend...Wow, I suck...

The plan was to log onto our internet computer at work today and buy some next day delivery bits from Amazon.com but my colleague who actually has a logon to that computer has called in sick.... Buggeration. Now to frantically email the helpdesk to get myself a login, or it's gonna be a mad dash round London on Friday...

Tonight I'm off to drop off a bag of dog toys and treats to a local charity to give to dogs in pounds over Christmas, so that's my little good deed done for the festive season!

Got some amazing food from Borough Market in London over the weekend too! Some cheese matured in red wine from a stall called Drunk Cheese, some lovely creamy fresh mozzarella, and some handmade garlic butter... Think we're doing an Italian meal for us and the Mother-In-Law this year...
I also found a stall called The Honest Carrot who do all veggie/vegan food and it's so yummy! My favorites are the carrot burgers, and the brie and mushroom pies, but they do bread baked in a flowerpot, it's adorable! Would make a great table centrepiece, would like to try making one myself actually!

I'm quite looking forward to the new year as well. Kinda scary to think I'll be 22 next year, that seems like a proper adult age, and I still feel about 12! I'm planning all sorts of interesting bodily additions too, I'm already speaking to a lovely chap called Iestyn Flye about removing my nape microdermal and having some scarification over the scar it'll leave. I've also contacted a lady about dreadlocking my hair, and am starting to chat to a tattooist called Delphine Noiztoy (who is, by the way, stunningly pretty and French!) about maybe starting my insect themed sleeve... Ever so excited, it feels nice to be growing into myself finally. After my foot tattoo and tongue split, I felt so much happier with myself and more comfortable in my skin.

I remember about a week after my tongue split, my boyfriend was DJing at a local club, and I was dancing like an idiot with a friend, and I remember thinking "I don't care what these people think of me, I'm not like them." And thats actually a really refreshing way to feel. I like feeling so alien from most others that I can't even compare myself.
Of course, occasionally it is nice to hang out with other heavily modded people, and to discuss my mods with someone who is genuinely interested, and not in a kinda 'why would you do that to yourself?' way...

It's also an interesting thought, that should anything happen to my current boyfriend, I imagine I would have a hard time finding a partner from outside the modded/fetish scene. It's not something that worries me, just an interesting thought...

Updates...

Added pics to some old articles, seeing as I'm currently on my home computer, not my work one... Enjoy!

Rant time!

Rant No1

Just heard Leona Lewis' cover version of Hurt... God it made me furious!

Honestly, hearing Johnny Cash cover that song should have put anyone off! I don't know how she expects to measure up to that!

I do like the original Nine Inch Nails version, but when Johnny Cash sung it, with stripped back instrumentation, and his voice cracking with age and emotion, I defy anyone not to well up! His voice is obviously not as rich and strong as it once was, which makes it all the more poignant, and you can feel every drop of emotion as he sings about his past regrets.

This new, hideous version is sung in a way that seems like she's more interested in showing off her vocal range with lots of 'whispery-whispery... LOUD!' kinda dynamics... Really, if you could hear the song playing in the background, you wouldn't notice the lyrics. Such a waste. And the instrumentation is blandy-bland-bland, wishy-washy orchestral pap.... I can't actually believe how insipid she had made such a heartstring-tugging song!

I don't even wanna see the video, after Cash's brilliant effort. I remember my Nan in tears seeing that video, as she remembers him as a good looking young hellraiser, and to see him as an ill old man looking back on his life is so heart-wrenching. Oh, it's just a travesty that she'd think to cover it!

It's like eating dry bread, when you've previously had wonderful gourmet sandwiches! Just awful!

As my Nan remembered him :')

Rant No2

I've seen a lot of articles getting upset about the Dragon Tattoo clothes collection from H&M, as it's based on the style of the character Lisbeth Salander... The issue seems to be that, in the book and film it's made clear she dresses as she does as she's a rape victim and wants to kinda 'harden' herself. So apparently this means it's not politically correct to like the aesthetic appearance of her clothes...

I dress in what could be called a fairly tough, 'unfeminine' way.. Boots, piercings, leather jackets, lots of black, mainly because I like this look. I'm also slightly aware that my bias against being traditionally 'feminine' maybe influenced by my past.

I hit puberty very early... Like, at 9 years old I bought my first 32A bra, and I was a C cup by the age of about 12. And I did look very old for my age, to be fair. So I had a lot of male attention for my body, before I was mature enough to know how to handle it.
Only 10ish years later have I realised that maybe thats why I begrudge my curvy figure and like to cover up in boyish clothes. I'm tired of being 'that girl with big tits' or being treated like a floozy by men...

Yet, if someone compliments my dress sense, I wouldn't think of going on a rant, saying "How dare you, do you not realise this is my armour against the world!"
I still choose my clothes by aesthetics, I still like what I wear and my style. Yes, sometimes I'd love the be the carefree girl dancing at a festival in nowt but a bikini, but I accept I dont have the confidence for that, so I'm happy wearing what I wear...

So I'll be hitting H&M on payday, to buy a pair of jeans, a hoodie, and maybe a leather jacket from the Dragon Tattoo collection, because, whether worn as social armour or not, those clothes are fucking awesome!